oops. i'm in california now.
it took me a while and there was a huge ass roadtrip that i cannot even begin to document but will put pictures up soon and then i will discuss and yeah.
also i live at my fucking mother's house and i work at peets in the ferry building. my house makes me want to die.
anyone have a place for me?
:(
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
why
please.
just kill me before i make it to my mother's house.
i have so much shit to do in the next 5 days, my house is in a shambles, and i stil have to work four more shifts at that stupid godforsaken restaurant. i will be so happy when tealuxe is all done with. i hate that job. with my soul. i hate it. hate. IT.
oh god. ew
i have to go to work in a few and i think that is what is fueling the hatred, but the fact of the matter is that i actually really do dislike it. i cannot wait until i am living somewhere else, with a new job, like an adult job! hopefully the concept of an adult job is not just a pipe dream, and i'll actually get one.
in a week or so i will be california bound!
on the road! with kyle and wendy! and it's going to be kind of strange to be back in cali again. but i think i will lmake it. there are people out there that i like, i think, and there are peole out there who i am friends with, or who i was friends with, and most importantly i will be able to get the fuck out of my mother's house as soon as possible thanks to camille ruth travis and her ingenuitty in the world of apartment hunting. once we find a place to live, we should be all set.
FUCK PACKING.
just kill me before i make it to my mother's house.
i have so much shit to do in the next 5 days, my house is in a shambles, and i stil have to work four more shifts at that stupid godforsaken restaurant. i will be so happy when tealuxe is all done with. i hate that job. with my soul. i hate it. hate. IT.
oh god. ew
i have to go to work in a few and i think that is what is fueling the hatred, but the fact of the matter is that i actually really do dislike it. i cannot wait until i am living somewhere else, with a new job, like an adult job! hopefully the concept of an adult job is not just a pipe dream, and i'll actually get one.
in a week or so i will be california bound!
on the road! with kyle and wendy! and it's going to be kind of strange to be back in cali again. but i think i will lmake it. there are people out there that i like, i think, and there are peole out there who i am friends with, or who i was friends with, and most importantly i will be able to get the fuck out of my mother's house as soon as possible thanks to camille ruth travis and her ingenuitty in the world of apartment hunting. once we find a place to live, we should be all set.
FUCK PACKING.
Monday, August 08, 2005
oopsie
it has been nearly a month since i did this shit.
oh well.
it's the motherfucking countdown time to the time for me to get out of boston.
instead of flying, i am going on one last hurrah, a road trip with wendy and kyle. that will be fun, althought we have to camp, which is something i am less than thrilled about, but i will find some way to survive i am sure.
i have not done jack shit in the way of packing up this apartment or even starting to think about packing or anything.
i have a huge list of shit that i want to do tomorrow but there is a damn good chance i am just gonna say fuck it and go to the beach for one last time. i have to maintain this tan somehow. i have no idea how. but i must. it is imperative.
i'm hungry. almost time to go get my fat ass a chicken parm sub and some ice cream. god i'm lame sometimes.
oh well.
the thought of packing makes me hyperventilate. kelly is going to come over and sit on the bed and help me so that will be good, but it's just so fucking hot here. august is a rough month, i completely forgot.
it will be temperate in the bay area. that is good.
also, it will be..i don't know, better somehow, right?
nice weather, free food, free rent. whatever. i mean, i doubt that it will be better but it will be mediocre. i don't know. there won't be any snow. what am i going to do without seasons?
I WON'T SEE THE LEAVES CHANGE COLORS.
oh god iam really an east coast girl at heart. this transition will be slightly rougher than before, i feel.
oh well.
it's the motherfucking countdown time to the time for me to get out of boston.
instead of flying, i am going on one last hurrah, a road trip with wendy and kyle. that will be fun, althought we have to camp, which is something i am less than thrilled about, but i will find some way to survive i am sure.
i have not done jack shit in the way of packing up this apartment or even starting to think about packing or anything.
i have a huge list of shit that i want to do tomorrow but there is a damn good chance i am just gonna say fuck it and go to the beach for one last time. i have to maintain this tan somehow. i have no idea how. but i must. it is imperative.
i'm hungry. almost time to go get my fat ass a chicken parm sub and some ice cream. god i'm lame sometimes.
oh well.
the thought of packing makes me hyperventilate. kelly is going to come over and sit on the bed and help me so that will be good, but it's just so fucking hot here. august is a rough month, i completely forgot.
it will be temperate in the bay area. that is good.
also, it will be..i don't know, better somehow, right?
nice weather, free food, free rent. whatever. i mean, i doubt that it will be better but it will be mediocre. i don't know. there won't be any snow. what am i going to do without seasons?
I WON'T SEE THE LEAVES CHANGE COLORS.
oh god iam really an east coast girl at heart. this transition will be slightly rougher than before, i feel.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
peanut m&m's are fantastic!
sooo
i am freaking out sorta kinda about moving back to california. i don't like thinking about it, itt make me angry/sad/scared/etc. i have no job, no apartment and the prospect of living with my mother for a month makes me want to gouge my eyes out. oh well at least the weather will be nice and there won't be any FUCKING SNOW GODDAMMIT. i will be happy if i don't see snow for like 3 years. actually that's not true, come winter time i am going to be sobbing hysterically for the snow covered boston streets. oh god. i really like the east coast. it's shit like this that makes me wonder what the fuck i am even doing moving back to the west side. i don't think i like it that much. granted, the last time i lived there i was about 17 years old and unable to drink, didn't smoke pot, and was kind of lame in general. things are different this time around. i will have friends from boston coming with me and that will make a world of difference. also, gregory j. hastings will be joining me and so will camille travis. and these people make me soooo happy i can't even tell you. i want greg to slut it up good in san fran, and camille needs to get back in my life cause i have not seen that girl in a minute.
good will hunting is on TV. i love this movie. and i love tv.
i have a problem i think. a tv/celebrity problem.
oh well.
i have that one song stuck in my head that goes like this: "are we in looooooove or juuuust friends/is this my beginning or is this the ennnnd(is this the end)"
WHY GOD.
ugh.
whatevs.
i am freaking out sorta kinda about moving back to california. i don't like thinking about it, itt make me angry/sad/scared/etc. i have no job, no apartment and the prospect of living with my mother for a month makes me want to gouge my eyes out. oh well at least the weather will be nice and there won't be any FUCKING SNOW GODDAMMIT. i will be happy if i don't see snow for like 3 years. actually that's not true, come winter time i am going to be sobbing hysterically for the snow covered boston streets. oh god. i really like the east coast. it's shit like this that makes me wonder what the fuck i am even doing moving back to the west side. i don't think i like it that much. granted, the last time i lived there i was about 17 years old and unable to drink, didn't smoke pot, and was kind of lame in general. things are different this time around. i will have friends from boston coming with me and that will make a world of difference. also, gregory j. hastings will be joining me and so will camille travis. and these people make me soooo happy i can't even tell you. i want greg to slut it up good in san fran, and camille needs to get back in my life cause i have not seen that girl in a minute.
good will hunting is on TV. i love this movie. and i love tv.
i have a problem i think. a tv/celebrity problem.
oh well.
i have that one song stuck in my head that goes like this: "are we in looooooove or juuuust friends/is this my beginning or is this the ennnnd(is this the end)"
WHY GOD.
ugh.
whatevs.
Friday, July 08, 2005
ooh boston why you gotta be so cold
hello.
it's july. the middle of july in fact. and due to the fucking hurricane whoevs, it is freezing outside. i feel like i just made a post about this but you know what i am going to say it again.
the andy milonakis show is on TV right now, and it is not that funny. this kid is really annoying.
HOWEVER the most hilarious/best show on TV right now is being bobby motherfucking brown. good LORD that show is great. whitney? whitney wearing a white macrame top and dancing to a muzak version of "sir duke" in the lobby of the atlantis resort in the bahamas with bobby? perfection. bobby getting wasted at a chinese restaurant in london and then almost acting like he's gonna beat whitney's ass again when she talks about his kids? fantastic. AND my personal favorite: whitney and bobby in the gift shop of the hyatt in atlanta. whitney is trying on sunglasses. they dance.
i died.
god i love reality television.
it's july. the middle of july in fact. and due to the fucking hurricane whoevs, it is freezing outside. i feel like i just made a post about this but you know what i am going to say it again.
the andy milonakis show is on TV right now, and it is not that funny. this kid is really annoying.
HOWEVER the most hilarious/best show on TV right now is being bobby motherfucking brown. good LORD that show is great. whitney? whitney wearing a white macrame top and dancing to a muzak version of "sir duke" in the lobby of the atlantis resort in the bahamas with bobby? perfection. bobby getting wasted at a chinese restaurant in london and then almost acting like he's gonna beat whitney's ass again when she talks about his kids? fantastic. AND my personal favorite: whitney and bobby in the gift shop of the hyatt in atlanta. whitney is trying on sunglasses. they dance.
i died.
god i love reality television.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
resolved.
headphone issue taken care of!
got fantastic new ones.
however as a result of the charming weather system with the middle american name, it is 62 degrees outside in the middle of july. i'm wearing a sweatshirt for christ's sake.
oh boston. it's better than seven hudnred degree humidity i suppose.
i am a bit disjointed these days. i don't know if that's even the word i mean, but i'm stressed out about moving across the country. i have gotten nothing done in that regard. i have to arrange for a television and a bed to either be sold or moved across the country. i am not sure how excited i am about moving to california all of a sudden. high school was fine, i suppose but i don't really remember it due to the activities afterwards. oh short term memory, i am sure it was nice while it lasted...
in any case, i have no idea anymore. this whole after college thing feels really scary all of a sudden.
got fantastic new ones.
however as a result of the charming weather system with the middle american name, it is 62 degrees outside in the middle of july. i'm wearing a sweatshirt for christ's sake.
oh boston. it's better than seven hudnred degree humidity i suppose.
i am a bit disjointed these days. i don't know if that's even the word i mean, but i'm stressed out about moving across the country. i have gotten nothing done in that regard. i have to arrange for a television and a bed to either be sold or moved across the country. i am not sure how excited i am about moving to california all of a sudden. high school was fine, i suppose but i don't really remember it due to the activities afterwards. oh short term memory, i am sure it was nice while it lasted...
in any case, i have no idea anymore. this whole after college thing feels really scary all of a sudden.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
headphones and my life
OH GOD.
i have some sort of fucked up electronics issue because i simply cannot choose headphones.
i have been having problems with my in-ear buds because they are retarded and one ear is going again, like it used to be. so i am faced with the fact that i have to get new ones. and this time, i am not fucking around. i want huge ass headphones that will cancel out all noise, and that will render me deaf to the influences of the outside world. i like that. when my father asked me wy on earth i would want that, i stated simply that with my old earbuds, it was kind of annoying becauuse people woudl assume that i could hear them when really, that was not the case at all. in fact, i was pretty much deaf, and then i would seem rude when they tried to talk to me.
IN ANY CASE. before seeing war of the worlds with wendy, i went to best buy and purcahsed a pair of sony mdr-v150s or some shit. i dont remember. and i like the way they look, which is important, since i am vain like that, BUT upon trying them out which is what i am doing right now, they do not work as well as i would like. in fact, they are not completley closed ear. they let in some ambient sound and etc. and thhat is not ok. i want big ass headphones that are going to cover half of my face. i have been feverishly researching headphones online and have narrowed it down to the sennhesier hd 202s. i am obviously not well. but once this headphone issue is resolved i will be all set.
why are these headphones getting hot on my head? does that make any sense?
goood lord. i think i am a bit punchy today. wtf x 10.
in any case enough out of my ass.
i have some sort of fucked up electronics issue because i simply cannot choose headphones.
i have been having problems with my in-ear buds because they are retarded and one ear is going again, like it used to be. so i am faced with the fact that i have to get new ones. and this time, i am not fucking around. i want huge ass headphones that will cancel out all noise, and that will render me deaf to the influences of the outside world. i like that. when my father asked me wy on earth i would want that, i stated simply that with my old earbuds, it was kind of annoying becauuse people woudl assume that i could hear them when really, that was not the case at all. in fact, i was pretty much deaf, and then i would seem rude when they tried to talk to me.
IN ANY CASE. before seeing war of the worlds with wendy, i went to best buy and purcahsed a pair of sony mdr-v150s or some shit. i dont remember. and i like the way they look, which is important, since i am vain like that, BUT upon trying them out which is what i am doing right now, they do not work as well as i would like. in fact, they are not completley closed ear. they let in some ambient sound and etc. and thhat is not ok. i want big ass headphones that are going to cover half of my face. i have been feverishly researching headphones online and have narrowed it down to the sennhesier hd 202s. i am obviously not well. but once this headphone issue is resolved i will be all set.
why are these headphones getting hot on my head? does that make any sense?
goood lord. i think i am a bit punchy today. wtf x 10.
in any case enough out of my ass.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
rosie o'donnell
holy crap
rosie o'donnell's blog is horrible/hilarious/funny/sad.
and jenny and i are going to the beach tomorrow at manchester by the sea. we are waking up very early.
also i am watching rachel bilson on tv and she is a fucking idiot.
thank god i went to college!
rosie o'donnell's blog is horrible/hilarious/funny/sad.
and jenny and i are going to the beach tomorrow at manchester by the sea. we are waking up very early.
also i am watching rachel bilson on tv and she is a fucking idiot.
thank god i went to college!
Thursday, June 30, 2005
i hate having people over
i have no idea what's wrong with me.
and let it be known that this is the first time in which i felt compelled to post. oh god kill me etc.
i dont know, but i really really really like having my privacy. i have lived by myself for the past two years and it has been incredible. there was a brief time i lived with dave and i don't even count that as living with someone. that was living by bmyself, but better, as i consider him at this point an extension of myself.
in any case: living by myself is fucking fantastic. my apartment is amazing. i like my tv. i like my computer. i like the internet, i like reading, i like playing video games and smoking a bowl and then reading and i like doing all of this withou feeling the incessant need to entertain/pay attention to someone else. people sit in my bed and they fuck up the covers and they touch stuff and i hate it. i sound like a cunt, and i'm not i swear, it's just that after two weeks of not being able to be where it is taht i want to be, it's nice to have that option available to me. and now it is.
those monistat commercials for chafing gel are really fucking gross. and thank god for this rerun of the season finale of america's next top model from the second season. it is the only thing getting me through.
and let it be known that this is the first time in which i felt compelled to post. oh god kill me etc.
i dont know, but i really really really like having my privacy. i have lived by myself for the past two years and it has been incredible. there was a brief time i lived with dave and i don't even count that as living with someone. that was living by bmyself, but better, as i consider him at this point an extension of myself.
in any case: living by myself is fucking fantastic. my apartment is amazing. i like my tv. i like my computer. i like the internet, i like reading, i like playing video games and smoking a bowl and then reading and i like doing all of this withou feeling the incessant need to entertain/pay attention to someone else. people sit in my bed and they fuck up the covers and they touch stuff and i hate it. i sound like a cunt, and i'm not i swear, it's just that after two weeks of not being able to be where it is taht i want to be, it's nice to have that option available to me. and now it is.
those monistat commercials for chafing gel are really fucking gross. and thank god for this rerun of the season finale of america's next top model from the second season. it is the only thing getting me through.
Monday, June 27, 2005
oh god
holy crap it's hot here. i'm looking at the little weather widget on dashboard, and it is telling me that it is currently 75 outside. and it's 1:30 in the morning. fuck that.
is it bad that i want to be a famous blogger?
i was reading go fug yourself, and it is seriously the most hilarious thing ever. if only...
my life has come to wishing i was an internet celebrity. we all knew it would come to this.
is it bad that i want to be a famous blogger?
i was reading go fug yourself, and it is seriously the most hilarious thing ever. if only...
my life has come to wishing i was an internet celebrity. we all knew it would come to this.
hello
had to get some things taken care of first. and now my life is in a way better place, mainly due to the one piece of nerdiness=NEW COMPUTER.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.
now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.
now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.
hello
had to get some things taken care of first. and now my life is in a way better place, mainly due to the one piece of nerdiness=NEW COMPUTER.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.
now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.
now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
?!?
whoopsie.
graduation is done.
i am an official college graduate. now i am a working stiff at tealuxe and am looking for a place to live in san francisco. i think. i am very uncomfortable with putting any sort of definition on the next couple of months. i don't know what i want to do or where i want to live and so i don't like talking abotu it. it makes me hyperventilate and i have to open the windows and wash my face. now it's here and i have no idea what i'm going to do but i don't have much money and it's gray outside STILL GODDAMMIT BOSTON HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT IT IS THE FIRST DAY OF JUNE~!!
the weather widget tells me that it will be in the 70's all week and i have yet to see any promise of that.
graduation is done.
i am an official college graduate. now i am a working stiff at tealuxe and am looking for a place to live in san francisco. i think. i am very uncomfortable with putting any sort of definition on the next couple of months. i don't know what i want to do or where i want to live and so i don't like talking abotu it. it makes me hyperventilate and i have to open the windows and wash my face. now it's here and i have no idea what i'm going to do but i don't have much money and it's gray outside STILL GODDAMMIT BOSTON HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT IT IS THE FIRST DAY OF JUNE~!!
the weather widget tells me that it will be in the 70's all week and i have yet to see any promise of that.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
my word
hackers is a great film. i am watching it right now as greg slumbers peacefully on the couch and my sister breathes phlegmatically next to me in bed. we are ready for my mother's arrival. it is going to be hell.
i can't even think about it.
i went to a really awkward work party today, and apparently one of my friends who is really fucked up is getting engaged. to her bf. who is also really fucked up. seriously, what is this world coming to?
i can't even think about it.
i went to a really awkward work party today, and apparently one of my friends who is really fucked up is getting engaged. to her bf. who is also really fucked up. seriously, what is this world coming to?
Monday, May 09, 2005
one week
i graduate in one week. greg finished his last painting this morning sometime, in a frenzy of text messages and adderall. he was exhausted, but he said that my name was in there, and that made me very happy. i am glad that i was a part of his work, as he has been a huge part of my life this year, getting me through all the shit or whatever.
i went to therapy today and rebecca was like "you know, you need to calm down. do something to calm down." i feared she was going to suggest yoga, and i remember contemplating wanting to do yoga for a while. i don't know about that anymore. yoga is kind of silly. i understand that it's really good for you physically and i suppose spiritually but it is really not my thing. some skinny bitch standing in front of me telling me to breathe deep and whatever. the one and only time i went to a yoga class, i wanted to leave immediately. unfortunately, it seems that they get nervous if you leave during the movements. i don't want to disturb the others.
on the way home from teh train the other day, i looked in the window of that shabby pet store. there was a cage with a huge pile of ferrets, and one of them had its little slinky head/body draped over the edge of his food/litter dish like a mink stole. i nearly vomited. ferrets disgust/frighten me.
that's a lot of slashes. what am i, 16?
i went to therapy today and rebecca was like "you know, you need to calm down. do something to calm down." i feared she was going to suggest yoga, and i remember contemplating wanting to do yoga for a while. i don't know about that anymore. yoga is kind of silly. i understand that it's really good for you physically and i suppose spiritually but it is really not my thing. some skinny bitch standing in front of me telling me to breathe deep and whatever. the one and only time i went to a yoga class, i wanted to leave immediately. unfortunately, it seems that they get nervous if you leave during the movements. i don't want to disturb the others.
on the way home from teh train the other day, i looked in the window of that shabby pet store. there was a cage with a huge pile of ferrets, and one of them had its little slinky head/body draped over the edge of his food/litter dish like a mink stole. i nearly vomited. ferrets disgust/frighten me.
that's a lot of slashes. what am i, 16?
Sunday, May 08, 2005
jaffa cakes for all!
i picked my sister up from the airport last night. she was bedraggled, tired and full of fun filled treats and surprises, like jaffa cakes. mmm jaffa cakes. i just had one. they are good.
she came home and passed out on the couch, apparently very happy to have returned to the television, which is something that i can understand very much. when i came home from work the television was on the food channel. jenny cracks my shit up.
it's mother's day. call your mother. i will be calling my crazy ass mom in a few, but i really cannot deal with her. jenny and i are going to prepare the house for her arrival on thursday. this will include a lot of scrubbing down of various surfaces, laundry, emptying out the nasty ass fridge, throwing shit away and probably smoking all the pot that i have in my possession at this time. granted, it is not a lot, but still. i feel like i'm 16 and in high school, but in reality i'm graduating from college in a week.
oh man.
she came home and passed out on the couch, apparently very happy to have returned to the television, which is something that i can understand very much. when i came home from work the television was on the food channel. jenny cracks my shit up.
it's mother's day. call your mother. i will be calling my crazy ass mom in a few, but i really cannot deal with her. jenny and i are going to prepare the house for her arrival on thursday. this will include a lot of scrubbing down of various surfaces, laundry, emptying out the nasty ass fridge, throwing shit away and probably smoking all the pot that i have in my possession at this time. granted, it is not a lot, but still. i feel like i'm 16 and in high school, but in reality i'm graduating from college in a week.
oh man.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
ah excrement
this post will be about the scene that i discovered yesterday afternoon befor and after a delightful lunch with greg and porter.
on my way out of the house, there was a large man in shorts passed out on his back breathing heavily with his eyes closed, possibly in the throes of a heart attack or some other horrible thing. being a good citizen, i went to call the ambulance, but saw that someone else had, and went on my way, after making sure that the paramedics were taking care of him.
i then went to vic's and had a nice lunch with greg and porter and then walked home. upon arrival at my house, the man was gone, and the front door to the vestibule where the doorbells are was opened. there also appeared to be something near the front door, but i wasn't sure what.
i went inside, and recoiled instantly from teh smell.
sitting in front of my front door was a pile of human shit, smeared on the rug and on the edge of the door, next to 2 pairs of socks, rolled up. inside the vestibule. there was a plastic garbage bag stuffed between the door, as if to hold it open.
the smell was overwhelmingly horrible. greg, porter and i nearly threw up. porter had to carry her bike in and we sort of left her down there alone. it waas hilarious/really traumatizing.
"for the boys" is on right now, and i remember watching this movie as a child. cracks me up. oh bette midler.
on my way out of the house, there was a large man in shorts passed out on his back breathing heavily with his eyes closed, possibly in the throes of a heart attack or some other horrible thing. being a good citizen, i went to call the ambulance, but saw that someone else had, and went on my way, after making sure that the paramedics were taking care of him.
i then went to vic's and had a nice lunch with greg and porter and then walked home. upon arrival at my house, the man was gone, and the front door to the vestibule where the doorbells are was opened. there also appeared to be something near the front door, but i wasn't sure what.
i went inside, and recoiled instantly from teh smell.
sitting in front of my front door was a pile of human shit, smeared on the rug and on the edge of the door, next to 2 pairs of socks, rolled up. inside the vestibule. there was a plastic garbage bag stuffed between the door, as if to hold it open.
the smell was overwhelmingly horrible. greg, porter and i nearly threw up. porter had to carry her bike in and we sort of left her down there alone. it waas hilarious/really traumatizing.
"for the boys" is on right now, and i remember watching this movie as a child. cracks me up. oh bette midler.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
oh well
well i went to my for real last class of college today. it wasn't even a real class but i went to get a paper back and i did all right and blah blah, i dont care anymore.college and i are finished. end of story.
i am going to talk to sam and cher about grad school however, becuase sam went to the grad school that i want to go to, and he isaid it was like a roach motel: easy to get into, but hard to get out of. that makes me sort of happy.
i dont know.
shit isn't necessarily going the way i would like it to go at this stage in my life but you know what i guess that's the point. i'm looking for jobs in seattle. ii will start sending resumes out at the beginning of june and keep my fingers crossed from there. soon i will have eto start looking for apartments, then i will have to get a plane ticket and then i will be out there. perhaps i am fucking retarded for doing this without us even being back together, but i can do the pacific northwest for a while. it's a change of pace. and i could alwya suse a fucking change of pace.
i am going to talk to sam and cher about grad school however, becuase sam went to the grad school that i want to go to, and he isaid it was like a roach motel: easy to get into, but hard to get out of. that makes me sort of happy.
i dont know.
shit isn't necessarily going the way i would like it to go at this stage in my life but you know what i guess that's the point. i'm looking for jobs in seattle. ii will start sending resumes out at the beginning of june and keep my fingers crossed from there. soon i will have eto start looking for apartments, then i will have to get a plane ticket and then i will be out there. perhaps i am fucking retarded for doing this without us even being back together, but i can do the pacific northwest for a while. it's a change of pace. and i could alwya suse a fucking change of pace.
Monday, May 02, 2005
the master plan of the lesbian bent on seduction
i am not the lesbian in question in the title. i am watching a semi-hilarious documentary on these two old lesbian activists. its charming. there are a lot of really awkward sepia toned reenactments of young girls pretending to be lesbians in the fifties. it's very odd.
in any case: i had a blast from the past today and hung out with amy and lauren. it was nice to see them, and the good thing about hanging out with people from high school is that while you always think it is going to be really awkward, it ineveitably ends up not being so at all. i dont know, it was just like we had always seen each other. it worked.
i need to start reading more. i should turn off the TV. some day.
in any case: i had a blast from the past today and hung out with amy and lauren. it was nice to see them, and the good thing about hanging out with people from high school is that while you always think it is going to be really awkward, it ineveitably ends up not being so at all. i dont know, it was just like we had always seen each other. it worked.
i need to start reading more. i should turn off the TV. some day.
Friday, April 29, 2005
seriously.
i have to go to sleep soon.
i have to work at 8:30 in the morning. kati got out of the hospital. tiger is fantastic. i love everything about it, and i want to learn stuff so that i can do stuff with my computer. i am really tired now, and am looking at an absolutely hideous clock that is on my desktop now. these have been the most dorkiest and pathetic posts of all time. i'm actually just burnt out/stoned now, and i don't know what ot do about that except go to bed. that is what i'll do.
thank you and goodnight.
i have to work at 8:30 in the morning. kati got out of the hospital. tiger is fantastic. i love everything about it, and i want to learn stuff so that i can do stuff with my computer. i am really tired now, and am looking at an absolutely hideous clock that is on my desktop now. these have been the most dorkiest and pathetic posts of all time. i'm actually just burnt out/stoned now, and i don't know what ot do about that except go to bed. that is what i'll do.
thank you and goodnight.
ohhhh boy
well it looks like i got this shit all figured out. thank god for tiger. i hope this works. seriously.
being stoned makes for cryptic times. oh well. no one reads this anyway.
being stoned makes for cryptic times. oh well. no one reads this anyway.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
wow.
you know, i didn't think that i would actually update this at all. maybe now that i am out of college and living the high life i will have much more time on my hands. the leisured life, etc.
yeah right.
well i am on a crusade to get out of my house more often, i.e every day for at least a couple of hours while it is daylight. i did that today and looked at shoes. i did not buy any shoes, but i am planning on telling my mother a large variety of items to purchase for me as graduation presents. that is what happens. when you achieve huge milestones, you get meaningless things that will become unnecessary and unimportant in a few years. unless you can sell them to pay off your student loans.
ew. i really don't want to become someone who has one of these motherfuckers on all the time and is all about updating them and whatever.
i am such a dork that i don't even care anymore. the older that i get, the less it matters.
tiger is on its way to my house thank god. as a result, i will be geeking out all day tomorrow after work.
i cannot believe i just typed that sentence.
yeah right.
well i am on a crusade to get out of my house more often, i.e every day for at least a couple of hours while it is daylight. i did that today and looked at shoes. i did not buy any shoes, but i am planning on telling my mother a large variety of items to purchase for me as graduation presents. that is what happens. when you achieve huge milestones, you get meaningless things that will become unnecessary and unimportant in a few years. unless you can sell them to pay off your student loans.
ew. i really don't want to become someone who has one of these motherfuckers on all the time and is all about updating them and whatever.
i am such a dork that i don't even care anymore. the older that i get, the less it matters.
tiger is on its way to my house thank god. as a result, i will be geeking out all day tomorrow after work.
i cannot believe i just typed that sentence.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
huh
so this is a bit odd. haven't done this in a while. huh. not sure if i am ok with this.
well i am just using blogger instead of LJ because i do not enjoy the various communities of screaming idiots/morons/emerson college students.
who knows.
i may not keep this up, but probably i will, or you know probably not. we'll see. i have just finished college. i am goign t be doing some shit with somet hings, and it is probably going to be a bit dramatic/not ok/i can't even imagine. we'll see. lots of shit has changed, and a lot of shit is changing and its a very confusing time. this is not stuff that is new to anyone, i imagine, but lord only knows who it is that is reading this so fuck that. you know?
ok i am definitely finished rambling.
well i am just using blogger instead of LJ because i do not enjoy the various communities of screaming idiots/morons/emerson college students.
who knows.
i may not keep this up, but probably i will, or you know probably not. we'll see. i have just finished college. i am goign t be doing some shit with somet hings, and it is probably going to be a bit dramatic/not ok/i can't even imagine. we'll see. lots of shit has changed, and a lot of shit is changing and its a very confusing time. this is not stuff that is new to anyone, i imagine, but lord only knows who it is that is reading this so fuck that. you know?
ok i am definitely finished rambling.
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