i hate having people over

i have no idea what's wrong with me.
and let it be known that this is the first time in which i felt compelled to post. oh god kill me etc.
i dont know, but i really really really like having my privacy. i have lived by myself for the past two years and it has been incredible. there was a brief time i lived with dave and i don't even count that as living with someone. that was living by bmyself, but better, as i consider him at this point an extension of myself.
in any case: living by myself is fucking fantastic. my apartment is amazing. i like my tv. i like my computer. i like the internet, i like reading, i like playing video games and smoking a bowl and then reading and i like doing all of this withou feeling the incessant need to entertain/pay attention to someone else. people sit in my bed and they fuck up the covers and they touch stuff and i hate it. i sound like a cunt, and i'm not i swear, it's just that after two weeks of not being able to be where it is taht i want to be, it's nice to have that option available to me. and now it is.
those monistat commercials for chafing gel are really fucking gross. and thank god for this rerun of the season finale of america's next top model from the second season. it is the only thing getting me through.

oh god

holy crap it's hot here. i'm looking at the little weather widget on dashboard, and it is telling me that it is currently 75 outside. and it's 1:30 in the morning. fuck that.
is it bad that i want to be a famous blogger?
i was reading go fug yourself, and it is seriously the most hilarious thing ever. if only...
my life has come to wishing i was an internet celebrity. we all knew it would come to this.

hello

had to get some things taken care of first. and now my life is in a way better place, mainly due to the one piece of nerdiness=NEW COMPUTER.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.

now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.

hello

had to get some things taken care of first. and now my life is in a way better place, mainly due to the one piece of nerdiness=NEW COMPUTER.
after my old one brok about three hundred time,s, i had to talk to apple on the phone for like ten years, and they finally were like hey, you know what, i think you get a new computer. and i said hey, that sounds like a really good idea. and lo and behold. i have a new computer. it's beautiful, wonderful and everything i have ever asked for and more.

now i have to get my life in order somehow. first matter: moving to california. then getting a job, then finding an apartment, then convincing/hoping on a wing and a prayer tha tdave moves in with me.
god. this is not looking so good so far.
we shall see, as he and i are so fond of saying.
enough. it's too hot here.

?!?

whoopsie.
graduation is done.
i am an official college graduate. now i am a working stiff at tealuxe and am looking for a place to live in san francisco. i think. i am very uncomfortable with putting any sort of definition on the next couple of months. i don't know what i want to do or where i want to live and so i don't like talking abotu it. it makes me hyperventilate and i have to open the windows and wash my face. now it's here and i have no idea what i'm going to do but i don't have much money and it's gray outside STILL GODDAMMIT BOSTON HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT IT IS THE FIRST DAY OF JUNE~!!

the weather widget tells me that it will be in the 70's all week and i have yet to see any promise of that.