not ready for this

arg.

i could turn this into a half assed knitting blog. that's all i've been reading recently because apparently, i am obsessed with knitting. i found myself on the phone to my sister in new york directing her urgently to a yarn barn so she could get me shit for my birthday. i'm telling you, i'm not ok.

UMMMMM
lets see. well. sf is the same after a year. it is almost birthday time which is depressing as it means i am now older, and blah blah and also i am older here which is something that i am working on adjusting to. wendy leaves in like two weeks to go cavort on a winery with porter, which leaves greg and mc and i.my little family dwindles rapidly with each day. i guess it's time for us to find more people, more friends, and to start putting roots down in this city. i'm obviously terrified to do so, since i haven't really, although the internship is a step in the right direction. all the places to put roots down here are unsatisfactory. there's nothing i care about deeply enough to commit to it fully. that could be a byproduct of the quarter life crisis which i and others are going through.

i went to the dentist a week ago and the dental hygenist hummed under her breath the whole time she cleaned my teeth. it was kind of hellish. and then i was told tha ti have really deep gum pockets and need to have them fixed immediately. i don't even know what that means, but i am sure it is gross and a result of my poor dentaly hygein
also i interivewed at chronicle books for wendy's job. let's hope i get it. helping to sell advertising at the san francisco chronicle is really bringing me down. and no, to my east coast affiliates, chronicle books and the chronicle are not related. one is hell and the other is slightly better.


le. fucking. sigh.